MrAccent came to see me, we had a wonderful dinner at one of the best restaurants in town, kissed a bit in his nice boutique hotel room and then I left. No sugar, no sex. And then he disappeared. Whatevs. Then there is this man I probably haven't mentioned in the blog before, let's call him MrEccentric for now. We talked for quite a bit last summer and then I decided to let him go, but now he's back. He's in south of France on his yact at the moment and is feeling the itch to move on, it's getting cold in Europe. We haven't talked for 3 months but everything is the same. The chemistry, the feeling of knowing each other since the beginning of time, talking in metaphors, getting restless and talking of nothing on the phone for hours. His voice gets me wet.. haven't masturbated this much since.. never?
This whole thing reminds me of how I met my ex-boyfriend. We met online and for a reason just chatted online for maybe two months. The chemistry was amazing, it was like a drug. When we finally met, it was love at first sight, fireworks and abandonment of everything else. It lasted for 4 years until we both were burnt out on the love and passion. The sex was incredible till the last night we spent together, us both crying through sweaty panting climax as we knew it was the last one together. So, I don't now.. meeting MrEccentric could be a disaster leaving me burnt, or it could be a mind blowing, life changing chance of... everything I have ever wanted. Isn't it funny how you become hesitant when you are offered the world and adventures you have always dreamt of?
PS Oh well, gotta confess, me and the ex met a couple of times after the break up just for sex...
All I can do is laugh, really. 2500pot got the boot, he has completely misunderstood all my mails and phone conversations about the allowance I'm looking for. He actually thought I would travel back and forth to Paris to see him EVERY weekend just because he would rent the apartment there and pay for my flights. Ummmm, yes, you read it right, just the flights basically. No compensation for my time, gifts etc. My English is NOT that bad, buddy, and you're not that attractive to get my attention for nothing. *NEXT* The local "jackpot" wanted to meet for champagne & strawberries in a hotel room. Ummmmm, yeah right. After my polite e-mail that I'm not meeting anyone in a hotel room for the first time, but we may still meet somewhere public: poof. What is it with thee guys??? I'm a goddamn honest, sincere, beautiful and intelligent, and they treat me like a whore? Aaargh. I'm off to down a glass a champagne by myself, thank you very much! Have a better Friday everyone! =)
Work and other real life activities have taken most of my time, but I'm still searching for the one SD. 2500pot wants me to relocate to Paris, otherwise no allowance, just the living and traveling expences paid (he'd rent an apartment for us in Paris and would pay for my apartment in my home town, as well). I could do that, traveling between Paris and home, I would actually LOVE to be able to stay in Paris regularly, but IDK. The discussion with him has gotten a bit tedious, a little too much transactional for my taste. He has also already said "no more other boyfriends", ummm, wtf, a bit too early for that kind of comments? I'll probably let him poof in peace... SurprisePot has disappeared again after his Chinese trip, but I'm still hoping he might resurface as he warned work would be very hectic for the rest of May. Couple of London potentials have come and gone, not hoping anything from there... And then there are two local potentials. The other one is most likely looking for a wife, so I need to thread lightly with him. If he's a gem, why not, but so far I don't have enough info on him to determine that. And then the jackpot, if we have the chemistry. We exchanged e-mails in January and then he disappeared, only to come back last week. "Lost your e-mail address", yeah right, but I'll give him the benefit of a doubt. He's a businessman in his 50's, looking for a distraction for his dull everyday life, a travel companion to share experiences, and is willing to support me as a lady should be supported. No talk about euros yet, I'll save that for the first date. He wants to take care of my expences and to compensate for my time in a way that will keep me motivated, plus naturally all the champagne. Gotta love that subtle way of defining an arrangement. If our schedules permit, we'll meet on Friday for... ta-daa, some champagne. Will keep you posted and hoping to get some real sugar stories to share soon =) I've been too lazy to comment on anyones blogs, but I do read them religiously. Luv'ya all!
Banker from London poofed. What a surprise, but truth to be told, I'm quite disappointed as he seemed to be so nice, sincere and just my type. Oh well, live and learn. But if he gets back to me, I will be very happy about it as I already named him HermèsSD, wonder why ;D Right now I'm talking with a French businessman about going to Paris for the weekend. He's married (quelle surprise), hopes to have me on call 24/7 just for him and offers a verrrry nice allowance, actually 1000 euros more than what I'd be moderately happy with. I love that, because I would be able to quit my day job that I HATE. All I have to do is to find out his secret perversions and intolerable habits, hah. Of course I'm not leaving without the regular safety precautions (plane tickets and hotel room paid for and confirmed, plus some spending money). Once again all I can say is let's see =) What are your "basic demands" for a potential SD to make you feel safe enough to fly out to see him?
I'm back from the ski resort with aching thighs and bloated body. Oh the amount of food and drink was soooooooo over the top. During the 3 days I skied like 3 hours and the rest of the time was spent in different styles of after ski. With a glass in my hand. April is so going to be no alcohol and only veggies -month. The potential was unable to meet me there, he was too busy with his own guests. And both Smoothie and Hottie have disappeared despite the promised dates this week. BUT one pot I met yesterday in a chat room called me exactly at noon just as he promised. Good sign! He sounded very nice and we hit it off immediately. We'll meet for lunch on Wednesday, so let's keep fingers crossed! Maybe my frustration is shortlived and this neverending winter ends with some sugar in my direction...
With the goal on my mind (the debt, the debt..), I still make wishlists in my mind. I love lists and have countless lists and plans in my notebook, so why not show one of them to you. The needs of this wannabe SB- a new bed: the old one is too old and squeeky- lamps and area rugs to my apartment: I shouldn't ignore my surroundings even if I hate the place- gym membership: haven't gone to the gym for ages, so now is the time to rekindle this love, maybe I'll get membership to one of the VIP gyms in town- dentist appointment: I really need to check my teeth and preferably have them whitened- digital camera to take with me on my numerous trips with my SD ;)- new mobile phone: I need to be available in style, right- sunglasses with prescription lenses Let's talk about the shoes a bit later =) Smoothie decided to poof after our first meet yesterday. Or who knows did he poof or not, but later when I tried calling at the time we agreed on, his cell phone was off. And now he's sending texts like ";)". One thing that irked me was him insisting a test drive before the arrangement. He would have paid for my time, but that would have been too "escorty" to my liking. And his breath smelled bad, he really should see a dentist... TallBlond has probably poofed, not a word since my latest message confirming my wish to meet him again, too. Hottie has disappeared, as well. This disappoints me the most, I really thought we had a connection, but he himself maybe got fed up with his own timetables constantly changing and having to postpone our second meet time after time. If he resurfaces, I'll greet him warmly and with open arms (almost said thighs, but ahem)... But all is well in this sugar home, I'm on my way to meet a new potential, he's quite handsome, divorced and sounded very charming on the phone. I'll report about that later.
What is the most urgent/needed materialistic thing on your list?
I renewed my ad on the site, because the pots are just disappearing as quickly as they come and I can't count on HottieSD, even though how interested he is. But once again only poof-daddies emerge. I send e-mails here and there, everyone's interested, but then not one promise materializes. One pot originating from Januarys ad on the regular dating site still keeps in contact. He's 51 and a CEO of his own consulting company. He's been super busy with business trips and then he was off to a skiing holiday with his kids. But when he got back in town, he himself contacted me to schedule a lunch. I was very excited as we had gotten to know each other quite well and share a lot of same interests. But then the day before our lunch he cancels! He's having second thoughts as he "can't promise enough of his time, as he has been living for his work and the kids for so long, he's not sure he is able to commit to me as well as I would deserve". What a wonderful thought, but I'm not looking for a husband! So I write him a soothing e-mail explaining how everything would be on his terms and according to his timetables. I won't need him constantly, I would just love to make him feel happy and wanted and the moments we would share, would be full of stressfree fun and smiles. Happily he saw the light and now we are meeting next week for lunch. Can't wait!
I put up an ad on the site Lily had suggested. It consists mostly of ads from callgirls and escorts, but a well written and a bit different ad sure got some attention. I made clear I'm looking for a longterm, mutually beneficial relationship and not a romp in a hotel room. Needless to say, most of the answers were from johns wanting just that. Some men clearly understood what I was looking for, but were hesitant of the allowance part of the deal. Most of them poofed, as I need an allowance daddy, not a gift daddy. Gifts are nice, but I need to pay off a couple of debts first. Getting to meet the potentials is tricky, most of them poof, if not because of the allowance, then just because. I just can't see the reason why on earth they are on a site like that looking for a mistress and then not want to meet one, even if they are satified with my pictures and the phone conversation has been lovely? Go figure. So I got maybe 20 replies and all but one poofed. Poof!
