Still waiting... waiting....

Ok I'm pretty annoyed at the moment. Yeah haha the perfect time to blog =) Things with MrEccentric are going nowhere. Now he's tied up with some emergency stuff in another part of the world. All our plans fall apart and WE STILL HAVE NOT MET! I'm this close to saying goodbye and he knows it. We have had some serious discussions about the situation, but still both of us would want to see it till the end. Even if it is killing us.

I have mixed feelings as we didn't meet on a sugar site, so basically how to bring up the subject of money? As in I'm pretty much spending all my extra money on phone bills, so now I've started to only email him as that costs me nothing even on my mobile. He says he'll take care of me, but obviously not before we actually are together. So far I have only hinted on my situation and if he starts asking about "why only emails", I'll just say it as it is. Let's see his reaction then.

I haven't searched for sugar for couple of months, thank you MrFckingEccentric, but placed an ad yesterday. A girl has to do what a girl has to do. And once again local men leave me baffled. So I am not a professional, I am a lady looking for a generous boyfriend who would take care of me because I want to spend time with him and make him happy. And they think I deserve less than an escort? WTF? I would dedicate my time just for you and you expect me to be happy with a pittance compared to the professional, who has sex with tens if not hundreds of men every month? Sorry if I get annoyed, but seriously?!?! WTF is the logic of that?

Is this thing on?

Sorry about neglecting the blog and sugar world in general. Things with Mr Eccentric are the same, he's still in Singapore, taking care of business to be able to finally come meet me and then leave with me to begin a new adventure in business and life. This is frustrating beyond words, just skyping, texting, talking on the phone. We think alike and at the same time, he's the most romantic man I have ever met (yeah I know, not really met..), he's completely in love with me and is planning to propose to me when we meet. I dare not to tease him anymore, one day I said jokingly I'm saving myself for marriage and then he goes on how this is the first time ever he is considering that option. Mmmmmwhatt?

Keep your fingers crossed! I might have found true love sugar instead of NSA sugar, cannot imagine anything sweeter...

Oh why, thank you, ma'am

I'm all smiles. Yes The day has FINALLY arrived, I am in an arrangement! Daaamn that took long, though... Mr Gold is an amazing man, so attentive, so open and so easy to be with. The conversation just flows... Our date last night started with him handing out my allowance for November in full, a nice dinner and then more wine and flirting at his place. And the hottest, wettest make out session for a while =D Boy is he good with his tongue! I should give him an allowance for making me come and come and come and... oooh.

He travels quite a bit for pleasure, so I suspect there will be some of it in store for me, too. And as a good SD, he won't allow me to pay for anything when we are together, that's something he said already on our first date. Next date is in two weeks and as agreed, either he will give me shopping money or we go shopping together. Hmmm what do I really need... a new computer maybe?

Even if all this (and Mr Eccentric, grrrrrr him) goes nice and smooth, a girl must be vigilant. I still have 4-5 potentials with whom I'm scheduling first dates. They are all out of towners, so it takes a bit of planning. I seem to have found the right combination of sugar and money for the local potentials. Or is it the pheromones that are wafting into the air because of Mr E...?

What ever the reason, I have gotten completely different response to my search. Will keep you updated how it all developes. But right now I'm just super happy about Mr Gold! Have a wonderful weekend, my fellow sugars!

Oh do I dare to dream

I had the first really, really good, efficient and pleasant sugar date on Monday. I met a local potential SD who has had an arrangement before and what a wonderfully easy experience for me it was! He knew exactly what to say and reply to my questions, he made the allowance talk as comfortable for me as possible and he didn't make anything feel dirty or unpleasant. Talking about the money part was a breeze as opposed to the wannabe potentials I have met before. No need to explain it all from the beginning, wheww. And he loved me and I really liked him. And we're meeting again on Friday night and I'm taking my toothbrush along. Let's call him MrGold as he's blond. More to come, hopefully!

MrEccentric is still in the picture, he makes me so horny by just talking shit. Who knows what comes out of this, but I am going to see it through. Just because... I feel like flying.. floating on the sea with no horizon on sight... wanting to do cartwheels... I want to take the ends of a circle, step in and close it.

Bluer than velvet was the night, Softer than satin was the light

MrAccent came to see me, we had a wonderful dinner at one of the best restaurants in town, kissed a bit in his nice boutique hotel room and then I left. No sugar, no sex. And then he disappeared. Whatevs.

Then there is this man I probably haven't mentioned in the blog before, let's call him MrEccentric for now. We talked for quite a bit last summer and then I decided to let him go, but now he's back. He's in south of France on his yact at the moment and is feeling the itch to move on, it's getting cold in Europe. We haven't talked for 3 months but everything is the same. The chemistry, the feeling of knowing each other since the beginning of time, talking in metaphors, getting restless and talking of nothing on the phone for hours. His voice gets me wet.. haven't masturbated this much since.. never?

This whole thing reminds me of how I met my ex-boyfriend. We met online and for a reason just chatted online for maybe two months. The chemistry was amazing, it was like a drug. When we finally met, it was love at first sight, fireworks and abandonment of everything else. It lasted for 4 years until we both were burnt out on the love and passion. The sex was incredible till the last night we spent together, us both crying through sweaty panting climax as we knew it was the last one together.

So, I don't now.. meeting MrEccentric could be a disaster leaving me burnt, or it could be a mind blowing, life changing chance of... everything I have ever wanted. Isn't it funny how you become hesitant when you are offered the world and adventures you have always dreamt of?

PS Oh well, gotta confess, me and the ex met a couple of times after the break up just for sex...